Well well well…finally we are saying goodbye to ‘2008’ eh…tahun 2008, kalau ikutkan kepercayaan masyarakat Cina..nombor ‘8’ ni ada ong!..Baguslah maknanye…but for muslims..all time is a good time… cuma ada masa-masanya yang suasana agak lebih mencabar dari yang lain… 😉
First quarter of the year…I dilanda banyak legal issue…biasala..keje bank..risiko teramat tinggi..”Occupational hazard” orang kate..betul eh..?
And pada masa yang sama i bertemu dengan..err nak kate ape eh..ok la ‘crushed’ with someone …i still remember the date 25th February 2008 (first email). One thing la yg paling crucial yang i’ve truly learned the lesson from this relationship and my lil ‘zayan’ used to say, “there’s a major difference between ‘kesian’ and ‘sayang’..
And antara ‘kasih’ dan ‘kasihan’…tak boleh ‘sayang’ orang sebab ‘kesian’ atau ‘kasihkan’ orang sebab ‘kasihan’.. kena belajar ‘ikhlas’ bila sayang orang…kalau tak akibatnya memang akan memakan diri sendiri”…which is true enough…Come to think about it, maybe i mengharap bende yang tak sepatutnya dari dia tanpa i sedar…tapi takpelah..now dia pun dah happy ngan orang yang dia sayang…memang itu pun yang i cuba buat untuk dia dari awal…tolong dapatkan apa yang dia inginkan tanpa mengira akibatnya kat my ownself…
August 2008, I went for my Umrah..well, with all the life pressures that i had..it was the greatest gift that I’ve ever received in my life from the good Lord…selepas bertahun-tahun menyimpan hajat..akhirnya diberi peluang oleh yang Maha Esa…sempat jugaklah celebrate my birthday di Tanah Suci… Prior to my trip, i met a good teacher who had taught me whatever i needed to know and prepared myself for the umrah…
Tat’s my lil ‘zayan’… A week after I came back from Umrah, i ‘clashed’ ngan orang yang kehadirannya begitu meaningful in my life…painful, but life goes on… Maybe it’s part of the answers to my prayer as well…
September 08, i started with blogging..haih..tak reti nak tulis apa pun..bantai je..yg penting blog ni siap…Then lepas tu raya…tapi kurang bersemangat raya tahun ni sebab terlalu banyak insiden frust dalam bulan-bulan yang sebelumnya…
October 08, no grand event…cume bz keje cam biasa..in the meantime, I makin close ngan my lil ‘zayan’…i wud say… ‘zayan’ is simply the reflection of me … she reminded me on how and who i used to be before all the chaos… The moment i was left alone, wounded and forgotten, she came and ‘held’ my hand unconditionally..she didn’t even know how do i look like… she ignored her own ‘injury’ and with the minimal ‘first aid kit’ that she had at that time, she tried to heal me and make things less painful…Praise to Allah for showing His love and mercy by sending this little ‘soul’ to me..
Come November 08…the sports month for my company…i spent a lot of time outdoors…played a few games and our team came out as the overall winner…
I got some injury as well..maybe dah tua kot..tak cukup exercise..tu yang cramp sana sini.. hehehe … 😛
Sebelum 2008 melabuhkan tirai..Owh.. i met another new friend…Mek kelate…Wanis…a very beautiful and brilliant lady…tak lame lagi jadi ‘Dr’ rase… 🙂 I wish her all the best in her study.. .She reminds me to a number of my closed friends who were kelantanese when i was in MCC Kuantan many years ago…Now I m still trying to trace some of them via FB..
Well, time flies…we cried..we laughed…then we cried ..and we laughed again…here 31 December 08, final day…
I m still strugling with the few last things…but insya’allah everything will be fine…I hope 2009, will be a better year for me, my family and friends…
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!
D'raudhah Sakinah 