Salam…Today my faith was tested again…
Petang tadi I went for an interview for a post in Islamic Banking. During the session, the HR representatives explained to me the current situation and in actual fact jika dinilai dari sudut materialisme, I will be worse off if I moved to Islamic Banking. I will end up with more work but same pay.
Untuk seketika pendirian/keputusan aku untuk migrate to Islamic Banking tergugat. Memang I felt very uneasy and a bit upset coz it was not something that has been discussed and agreed earlier. So, I went back to my current office and told my existing boss about what happened. Again, pay and post have become among the highlighted points. I became more confused.
Noticed that I’ve become more irrational and frustrated, I stopped and stepped back for a moment. I took a deep breath and went to take my ablution and pray. I asked for His forgiveness and guidance if I actually had been mislead by the unwanted thought…
Thanks to His love and mercy, I then realized that I’ve actually deviated from my original intention. My first idea/intention to move to Islamic simply because I want to pursue my career in something closer to my own belief and Allah’s path. Not because of pay or post.
At that very moment, I put aside all the worldly elements, and remain only one subject in my mind and heart, Allah. Slowly I’ve become more calm/peace. I really feel that it is much easier for me to see and rationalize the whole situation if I put Allah as a centre of my attention. I hope this process is going to be smooth with His help and guidance.
“Dan perintahkanlah keluarga mu serta para pengikutmu menunaikan sembahyang dan hendaklah kamu tekun dan sabar menunaikannya. Kami tidak meminta rezeki darimu. Bahkan Kamilah yang memberikan rezeki kepadamu, dan kesudahan yang baik adalah bagi orang-orang yang bertaqwa.” Surah Taahaa : Ayat 132.